Thursday, April 30, 2009

For the One Who Shares My Life

For more than a decade now, I've been sharing my life with my man, longing to last the relationship forever. We've been through the ups and downs in life, clinging on to our love despite the temptations and devils around. Our love started as young as we are, ,though a lot of people describe it as puppy love, we managed to transform it into real love..(hahaha)...
As I scanned through our memoirs I've realized how wonderful our life has become through the years..Among the letters he sent, one of the hallmark cards he gave me has this nice poem, and I treasured it for years now and made it one of our vows....

"Two souls with but a single thought, Two hearts that beat as one...
I believe with all my heart that we were meant to be together...,

That I am a better person because of you..
Who I am can never again be totally separate from who you are...
We have become one in ways I can't explain in ways I can't fully understand
in ways that nothing can change...
We are one from now until forever--
United by the special love we share."


This Blog Award aims to consecrate the bloggers who truly love blogging and to promote friendship through blogging.
Moreover, this award aspires to:
a.) seek out the reasons why we all love blogging.
b.) Place the award in one post as soon as you receive it.
c.) Don't forget to mention the person who gives you the award.
d.) Answer the award's question by writing the reason why you love blogging.
e.) Tag and distribute the award to as many people as you like.
f.) Don't forget to notify the award receivers and put their links in your post.

This Blog Award was wholeheartedly given to me by a colleague and a friend of mine, Kevin, thanks for tagging me with this nice award! I really appreciate and love it! Thanks again!

When my friend Kessa first introduced me to blogging world, immediately I got interested with it and since the day I started blogging, my life evolved around blogging. One of my reasons for blogging is to express myself, articulate my journey in life and to be part of the world, be with them in their ups and downs! Blogging creates the other side of me.

Hereby, I am passing this award to my blog friends: Tweegy, Jong, Grace, Kessa, Brilliam, Brigitte, Weng, Wani, ^d_mOniC^, Judie, Betchay, Yulia, Andre, HoneyBUZZin, Mama Agan, Ikhsan, Shylukasa. And to everyone who are linked on my site, feel free to grab this award. You deserve this one! Stay HappY!

Wednesday, April 29, 2009

"Hash Out"

Among the letters my cousin sent me during my weekend get-away, she gave me advices to ponder, she told me she got it from poems and famous quotations but no matter where she got it, I still adore her for sending me life lessons to learn....

She hit me with a stone and gave me this advices:
- "Never do something if the risk is greater than the reward", think of what it would cause and cost you before jumping!
- "Life moves fast, but not so fast that you can't slow down to enjoy it" slow down and don't do anything that you'd regret later - leave it to your future when you are in the right age na..
- "You never know when you are making a memory" make the most of your life, "Instead of waiting for life to get better, do something about it", you can't just stand on one corner and wait for luck to come near you!" because "dreaming and doing go hand in hand!"
- "If you can laugh at yourself, you are going to be fine", and "if you allow others to laugh with you, you will be great", being too proud of one's self is not good for a person, it would just bring you down! "Be honest/true to yourself", "Be yourself", "Believe in yourself", and "Be a self to other"

It makes me giggle and laugh looking back, it's so funny to know that I've been the big bad wolf in my family before but now I am trying to give them the good side me, I just hope they'll be contented for everything I'm trying to do for them... I pray that God be by my side in everything I do, in everything I long to earn for the people who gave me life. Mwah *Wink*

Tuesday, April 28, 2009

For your Happiness

"Love is reading each others thoughts, Love is never forgetting"

As I was cleaning up my closet, I found the letters my cousin gave me when I went for a retreat during my teen years, she gave me a wonderful piece to reflect on, she told me the realities of life. As I was looking at her letters, I came across my past, the past I yearn to forget, as I looked back, I figured out the real me, the person I was before, the person struggling during her teen years and now everything is just a memory, a memory I can share, a past all can learn from. Now, here I am, strong and living, I am a different person now and my past contributed a lot to what I have become.

This was part of the letter my cousin sent me:

"Wonder, to me, is a good place to be. it helps you think, it helps you to see. Life's full of twist and turns will abound, but wonder and insight can guide you around. Explore what you may and fill up your mind, and hold in your heart the mysteries you find. Wonder is only saying you yearn. To know and select the things that you learn, and making a choice in which way you turn. The best path you take will always be right, cause if you were wrong, you can make it right. Each new step you tkae when you listen and hear, will give you more courage and freedom from fear. So wonder, my friend, rid of your doubt, and you will rejoice with how you turn out. And though you may fall and struggle too, know that I've been there and will always love you!"

Thank you 'cuz, for all the memories, for all the laughter and tears, thank you for loving me despite my behaviors before... We will always be sisters till the end, no matter who we are now!!! mwah!!!

Monday, April 27, 2009

5 Facts About Me

Today, I received a wonderful tagged from a wondrous friend of mine, Ate Weng.
1. Post these rules on your blog.
2. Share 5 facts about yourself.
3. Tag 5 people at the end of your post by leaving their name as well as links to their blogs.
4. Link the person who tagged you.
5. Leave a comment for each blogger.

5 Facts about me:

1. I am a sensitive gal, I take life too serious, I am emotional, a crybaby, and a loner.
2. I am scared of the dark, i hate turning the lights off when sleeping coz i feel like I see "the others" around me. 3. I love movies, scary-suspense movies, i love romantic films and I often daydream. 4. I love to eat - mostly chocolates, cakes, ice cream, and my mami mercy's sisig but I hate vegies!! 5. I am in love and hope to be in love forever!!!

Thanks Ate Weng for this badge, now I gladly pass this tag to my pretty nice friends: Tweegy, ^d_mOniC^, benchiegrace, kessa, Brigitte, judie, lara, amy, brilliam, sir jong and to everyone else out there! Take care

Monday, April 20, 2009

"My Wedding Vow"

Since I was a kid, I prayed, I hoped that someday I'll meet the man of my dreams, someone who could love me for me, who could treasure me for eternity, who could be my husband till the day that I die. And till this day, I continue to hope to walk down the aisle, be the wife that i can be, and thus be loved truly.
And on the day, that I'll finally be united with my man, I wish it to be the perfect moment to say my vow and promised to keep it for life.

Someday, these will be my wedding vow to my man:

"______, I give you this ring, wear it with love and joy. I choose you to be my husband: to have and to hold, from this day forward. For better, for worse, for richer for poorer; in sickness and in health; to have and to cherish, as long as we both shall live. And hereto, I pledge you my faithfulness to show to you the same kind of love as Christ showed the Church when He died for us, and to love you as a part of myself because in His sight we shall be one. I love you now and I'll be loving you forever."

And I pray that someday someone will vow his love for me through these lines:

"______, I love you. Today is a very special day. Long ago you were just a dream and a prayer. This day like a dream come true the Lord Himself has answered that prayer. For today, ______, you as my joy become my crown. I thank Jesus for the honor of going through time with you. Thank you for being what you are to me. With our future as bright as the promises of God, I will care for you, honor and protect you. I lay down my life for you, _____, my friend and my love. Today I give to you me."

Saturday, April 18, 2009

"How Suicidal Are You?"

These past few days, life has been a roller coaster for me. I've been through all the joys and pains and yet I'm still here, keeping my heart beating, surviving these crazy life of mine. I tried to ponder why I've been feeling miserable, weak and hopeless these days, I've tried crying it out yet no tears will fall, i tried to laugh it all out but still there's no sign that I can be happy at all. My emotions were ambivalent, I can't figure the reasons that made me so down, i thought I'm going crazy, I thought I'm just being so silly and sensitive but deep down in me, I know there's something wrong. Stress in work, stress at home, stress surrounds me everywhere I go, it keeps pulling my sanity, it makes me feeble and suicidal!!!

Today, I took a quiz from ""
and the test result shows: >You are 91% Suicidical

Yes, I guess, I am depressed and suicidal. I guess, I have the ability and strength to take the life out of me but I still believe that I also have the courage to refuse these kind of doing for I was born to fear my God! I just hope and pray that I'll be strong enough to stay alive and be happy with what I have now.
For the mean time, I am trying to get rid of these mixed emotions in me, I'm planning to run away from all these pain and reflect on the beauty of life!!!
Somebody has told me that "If people don't see how great I am, then THEY'RE stupid, not me!!" and I think she's right, so I won't let them sabotage my life!!!

***photo courtesy of: 4 d pix

Tuesday, April 14, 2009

A Walk to Remember

One of the greatest extraordinary novel of Nicholas Spark that inspired and hearten many to believe in miracles and to uphold the beauty of innocent love. A sweet tale of young but everlasting love...a story that tells the life of Landon Carter and Jamie Sullivan, two teenagers in a small southern town who eventually fall in love till death do them part.
"A Walk to Remember", the novel which made me cry and renew my faith. I kept crying for hours, don't why, I can't comprehend the reasons for my tears, I can't deduce the sanity beyond my behavior, I was completely transformed emotionally and spiritually by the story. Laugh if you want to but it was for real, the feelings were true, i am smitted by the novel. The novel squeezes your heart and makes you believe that in this crazy world, one can find her true love and make it last a life time.
"I pray someday, I'll get to experience a journey in life like this, that I'll be able to walk down the aisle, love and be loved unconditionally, and be able to say that I had A WALK TO REMEMBER!"

Sunday, April 12, 2009

Pondering my Faith (",)

It's Holy Week Celebration once again, a time for reflection, a time to repent. Jesus, our Savior died on the cross to save human kind from abomination. He suffered mercilessly and cruelly merely to shield us from hell. Our lives exist because of him. We owe our God all that we have and all that we are. And I'm so conscience-stricken for the reason that I have been a froward, naughty, false-hearted, bitchy advocate of my God.
It's a "Holy" Week but I've been so bad. I made mistakes. I coveted. I scandalized. I lived in sin and haven't lamented on my wrong doings. For the whole week, I was so preoccupied with my work, so jaded with all the adversities in my life that I lose sight of the essence of celebrating the holy week. Willfully, I skip the way of the cross and the Easter mass called "sugat". Despite this, I think in my heart, I will always uphold my faith in my God no matter what I do or failed to do.
It's been a hell of a week in my life and all I've tried to do is survive though I failed to commemorate the life my God had given me. I heartily ask him for forgiveness for all the pain I've caused him, for all the negligence I've made. I know he hears me and comforts me all throughout my agony, I hope he do forgives me.
I thank my God for the life he has given me. I thank him for saving me from hell. I thank him for being my savior, my strength, my guide and my angel. Thank you Lord, thank you! I know I'm a failure, I can't do the things you have done, I can't be a savior to anyone but I hope someday, I can make someones life better.

Sunday, April 5, 2009

"Ghost Whisperer"

"The dead are talking...and she is listening."
I miss Ghost Whisperer...I'm so engrossed with this series.
Ghost Whisperer, a tv series drama that depicts the life of a young woman who has the ability to see and communicate the dead, allowing her to help them crossover into the light. Ghost Whisperer arrays the other side of life, it tells us that people may die but they continue to be with us until we learn to let go, to forgive and be forgiven. For years now, I've been incessantly watching each episode of Ghost Whisperer, I've felt the pain, the sorrows and joys of every character portrayed in the story. I felt the need of living life to the fullest and treasuring the people who bring color to my life.
The tale touches my heart so intensely. All of it's episodes spook me, made me laugh and made me cry excessively. Among the episodes that gave me tears, two of it came from Ghost Whisperer Season 4, the episode titled "Imaginary Friends and Enemies" and "Threshold". These were the episodes that depicted the agony of Melinda (Jennifer Love Hewitt), it's the time when his husband Jim died accidentally. It really crushed my heart into pieces, the pain depicted seemed so real. Jim was the perfect husband, he loved Melinda unconditionally and understand that the ghost are a part of her life. When Jim died Melinda was down and though he loved her husband so much that it hurts to bid goodbye, she tried to cross him over into the light but because of true love, Jim refused and choose to relive his life again just to be with the woman he love.
Ghost Whisperer, may be for some, a kind of imaginary tale but for me, everything is real, I may not see and talk to the ghost but I do believe that somewhere out there, they exist and live with us. I'm looking forward for the next episodes of this series, and hope to learn more from it.Lastly. For me, the 7ghost may choose to walk into heaven or stay earth bound but whatever they choose, one reason concludes their choice - Love makes them stay!

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