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Tuesday, March 31, 2009

my twilight saga collection



“Twilight, another ending… No matter how perfect the day is, it always has to end” a brief delineation of what twilight is to Edward Cullen, the vampire boy in the Twilight Saga.
Twilight Saga, the novel of Stephenie Meyer caught the interest of billions of people, made humans believe that something unique, scary and divine subsist somewhere in this world to capture our imagination and hearts. The book depicts the life of a simple girl fated to love an immortal unconditionally and so also narrated the supreme pure devotion and ardour of a feared creature to a mortal. The story may be so illusory and superb but it made some fall in love for a non-existent immortal and continued to make women hope that men like Edward Cullen or Jacob Black will somehow exist in our world, to make us fall in love and be loved unconditionally.
The Twilight Saga, for me, is one of the best novels created in history. It made me cry, made me laugh, and it made me fall in love. Stupid as it seem to be but Twilight Saga nestled deep in me. One of my best friends had a hard time coping up with the pain she endured while reading the books, she felt she was part of the story, had cried and got depressed over the painful scenes of the book; she started reading the new moon book only recently after months of going through recovery, I often laugh at her for being miserable over something she should not yet I still understand that she fell in love with book and so did I.
With reverence to Ms. S. Meyer’s Twilight saga, I collected some of the best lines in the book that made me so in love with the story, with the characters and with the whole aspect of the book. Thanks to Ms. Meyer for creating such a wonderful saga, it inspires us all.

These are among the best quotes/lines I truly adore from the book:

** "Before u, my life was like a moonless night, very dark but there where stars, points of light and reason, and then you shot across my sky like meteor.... Suddenly, everything was on fire, there was brilliancy! There was beauty! When you were gone, when the meteor had fallen over the horizon, everything went black, nothing had changed but my eyes were blinded by the light...I couldn’t see the stars anymore and there was no more reason for anything..." Edward Cullen, New moon.
** "My life and his were twisted into a single strand. Cut one and you cut both! If he were gone, I wouldn’t be able to live through that. If I were gone, he wouldn’t live through it either...In a world, without him seemed completely pointless. Edward had to exist!" Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn!

** "If leaving is the right thing to do, then I’ll hurt myself to keep from hurting you...to keep you safe!" Edward Cullen
** "I would rather die than to stay away from you..." Bella Swan
** "When I thought of him, of his voice, of his hypnotic eyes, the magnetic force of his personality, I wanted nothing more than to be with him right now.." Bella Swan, Twilight
** "The bond forged between us was not one that could be broken by absence, distance or time and no matter how much more special or beautiful or perfect than he might be... he was irreversibly altered as I was. As I would always belong to him so would he always be mine..." Bella Swan, New Moon.
** "About 3 things I was absolutely positive: 1st, Edward was a vampire... 2nd, There was part of him and I didn’t know how potent that part might be that thirsted for my blood... and 3rd, I was unconditionally and irrevocably in love with him!" - Bella Swan, Twilight
** "It's been almost a century that Edwards been alone... Now he has found you, you can't see the changes that we see, we who have been with him for so long. Do you think any of us want to look into his eyes for the next hundred years if he loses you....?” Alice Cullen, Twilight!
** "For almost ninety years, I’ve walked among my kind and yours, all the time thinking I was complete in myself not realizing what I was seeking and not finding anything because you weren't alive yet!" Edward Cullen, Twilight!
** "I couldn’t live with myself if I ever hurt you, you don’t know how its tortured me, the thought of you, still, white, cold, to never see you that flash of intuition in your eyes when you see through my pretenses, it would be unendurable!! You are the most important thing to me now.... the most important thing to me Ever!" Edward Cullen, Twilight!
** "I hate forcing myself to let go of one person that I need in my life. It’s the only thing that makes sense but at the same time, it’s the same thing that complicates me. I know that I am better off without him, yet I feel empty whenever I try to let go. Now tell me, is emptiness better than constant hurting?" Bella Swan
** "My life hasn't beat in almost 90 years, but this was different. It was like my heart was gone like I was hollow. I'd left everything that was inside me here with you." - Edward Cullen
** "You are my life now!" Edward Cullen
** "I can’t live without my life.... I can’t live without my soul!" Edward Cullen
** "If all else perished and he remained, I should still continue to be. And if all else remained and he were annihilated, the universe would turn to be a mighty stranger!" - Bella Swan, Eclipse
** "When life offers you a dream so far beyond any of your expectations, its not reasonable to grieve when it comes to an end..." - Bella Swan, Twilight!
** "Our relationship couldn’t continue to balance, as it did, on the point of a knife. We would fall off one edge or the other, depending entirely upon his decision, or his instincts. My decision was made, made before I'd ever consciously chosen, and I was committed to seeing it through. Because there was nothing more terrifying to me, more excruciating, than the thought of turning away from him. It was impossibility!" Bella Swan
** "Even more, I had never meant to love him. One thing I truly knew - knew it in the pit of my stomach, in the centre of my bones, knew it from the crown of my head to the soles of my feet, knew it deep in my empty chest - was how love gave someone the power to break you...I'd been broken beyond repair!" Bella
** "If I could dream at all, it would be about you... And I'm not ashamed of it...” - Edward Cullen, Twilight
** "You are the only one who has ever touched my heart. It will always be yours..." - Edward Cullen
** "You are my life. You're the only thing that would hurt to lose..." - Edward Cullen
** "But if you bring her back damaged again - and I don’t care whose fault it is, i don’t care if she merely trips, or if a meteor falls out of the sky and hits her head - if you return her to me in less than perfect condition I left her in, you will be running with three legs. Do you understand now mongrel?" - Edward to Jacob
** "You are...well, not exactly the love of my life because I expect to love you for much longer than that, the love of my existence." - Edward Cullen
** "You are the most important thing to me now... the most important thing to me ever...” Edward Cullen
** "When you can live forever what do you live for?"
** "You're impossible! How can I put this so that you'll believe me? You're not asleep, and you're not dead. I'm here and I love you. I have always loved you and i will always love you. i was thinking of you, seeing your face in my mind, every second when i was away. when I told you i didn't want you, it was the blackest kind of blasphemy!" - edward cullen, new moon
** "I've found heaven right smack in the middle of hell!"
### "I promise to love you forever --- every single day of forever... Will you marry me?" -Edward Cullen, Eclipse
** "Only you could be more important than what I wanted, what I needed, what i want and need is to be with you, and I know I'll never be strong enough to leave again."" Edward Cullen
** "I'll never forgive myself for leaving you. Not if I live a hundred thousand years." - Edward Cullen
### "I'll be back so soon you won’t have time to miss me. Look after my heart; I've left it with you." - Edward Cullen
*** "You are the only one who has ever touched my heart. It will always be yours...”
** "If there were any way for me to become human for you, no matter what the price was, I would pay it."
** "If I had found you, there isn't a doubt in my mind how i would have proceeded. I was that boy, who would have as soon as I discovered that you were what I was looking for... gotten down on one knee and endeavoured to secure your hand. I would have wanted you for eternity, even when the world didn’t have quite the same connotations." Edward Cullen
** "I'll be fighting for her too. You should know that... I’m not taking anything for granted, and I’ll be fighting twice as hard as you will." Edward Cullen
### "We'll go to Vegas, you can wear old jeans and we'll go to the chapel with the drive-through window. i just want it to be official that you belong to me and no one else..." - Edward Cullen, Eclipse
** "When I left you, Bella, I left you bleeding. Jacob was the one to stitch you back up again. That was bound to leave its mark on both of you. Im not sure those kinds of stitches dissolve on their own. I can't blame either of you for something I made necessary. I may gain forgiveness but that doesn't let me escape the consequences." - Edward Cullen, Eclipse.
** "I can be noble, Bella. I'm not going to make you choose between us. Just be happy, and you can have whatever part of me you want, or none at all, if that's better. Don’t let any debt you feel you owe me influence your decision." Edward Cullen, Eclipse
** Bachelor parties are designed for those who are sad to see the passing of their single days. I couldn't be more eager to have mine behind me. So there's really no point."
** "It doesn't matter to me what you are Edward, as long as we are together, nothing can tear us apart." Bella Swan
** "When you loved the one who was killing you, it left no options. how could you run, how could you fight, when doing so would hurt that beloved one? If your life was all you had to give, how could you not give it? If it was someone you truly loved?"
** "Nothing was right when I was away from her" Edward Cullen
** Its so hard to describe. It’s not like love at first sight really. It’s more like gravity moves. When you see her, suddenly it’s not the earth holding you here anymore... She does!! And nothing matters more than her... and you would do anything for her, be anything for her....you become whatever she needs you to be, whether that’s a protector, or a lover or a friend, or a brother...” Edward Cullen
** "Surely, It was a good way to die, in the place of someone else, someone i loved..." - Bella Swan
** "So ready for this to be the end?" ...."For this to be the twilight of your life, though your life has barely started. You’re ready to give up everything" - Edward Cullen
** "I don’t want you to miss anything. I don’t want my presence to take anything away from you, if I can help it! I want you to be human. I want your life to continue as it would have if I’d died in nineteen-eighteen like I should have.."
** "He really did want me the way I wanted him forever. It was only fear for my soul, for the human things he didn’t want to take from me, that made him so desperate to leave me mortal. Compared to the fear that he didn’t want me, this hurdle my soul seemed almost insignificant." Bella Swan
** When I was doing something dangerous or stupid, I could remember you more clearly...I could remember how your voice sounded when you were angry. i could hear it, like you were standing right there next to me. Mostly i tried not to think about you but this didn’t hurt so much, it was like you were protecting me again. like you didn’t want me to be hurt....I wonder if the reason i could hear you so clearly was because underneath it all, I always knew that you hadn't stopped loving me..."
** "I've stolen, I've lied, I've coveted...my virtue is all I have left." "I've coveted you. I had no right to want you but I reached out and took you anyway."- Edward Cullen
** I would not leave without Edward again, if he were leaving this world, then I would be right behind him… I couldn’t imagine Edward not existing…somehow, somewhere. If we could be together in any place then that was a happy ending…” Bella
** Its one thing for me to make myself miserable but a wholly other thing for you to be so involved. I don’t want to hear that you feel that way. It was the truth, it was a lie. The most selfish part of me was flying with knowledge that she wanted me as I wanted her. It’s wrong, it’s not safe. I’m dangerous, Bella.
** “I’ll hurt myself to keep from hurting you, to keep you safe..”
** I can’t live in a world where you don’t exist...
** “I lied, and I’m so sorry, sorry because I hurt you, sorry because it was a worthless effort, sorry that I couldn’t protect you from what I am. I lied to save you, and it didn’t work. I’m sorry…” Edward Cullen, New Moon
** “I could see it in your eyes that you honestly believed that I didn’t want you anymore. The most absurd, ridiculous concept as if there were any way that could exist without I needing you...” Edward Cullen, New Moon
**Edward: “Yesterday when I would touch you, you were so careful, and yet still the same. I need to know why. Is it because I’m too late? Because I’ve hurt you too much? Because you have moved on, as if I meant for you too? That would be quite fair. I won’t contest your decision. So don’t try to spare my feelings, pls. just tell me now whether or not you can still love me after everything I’ve done to you.”
Bella: “The way I feel about you will never change, of course, I love you and there’s nothing you can do about it.”
** “I’m not going anywhere not without you.”
** “I only left you in the first place because I wanted you to have a chance at a normal happy human life. I could see what I was doing to you, keeping you constantly on the edge of danger, taking you away from the world you belonged in, risking your life every moment I was with you. So I had to try, I had to do something and it seemed like leaving you was the only way, If I hadn’t thought you would be better off, I could never made myself leave. I’m much too selfish. Only you could be more important than what I wanted, what I needed. What I want and need is to be with you and I know I’ll never be strong enough to leave again. I have too many excuses to stay. Thank heaven for that. It seems you can’t be safe, no matter how many miles I put between us.” Edward Cullen, New Moon
** Right and wrong have ceased to mean much to me. I was already past trying to live through one week at a time, or even one day. I was fighting to make it through a single hour; it was only a matter of time and not much of it before I showed up at your window and begged you to take me back. – Edward Cullen, new moon
** Lots of pieces of me went missing. I haven’t been able to really breathe in so long and my heart was definitely lost. – Bella Swan, New Moon
** I cannot be without you but I will not destroy your soul...

*** Quotes/Lines courtesy of Twilight Saga Books by Stephenie Meyer (Twilight, New Moon, Breaking Dawn and Eclipse)
Thanks for the wonderful book with those heart-warming love lines…
*** Pictures courtesy of: http://www.flickr.com/photos/27341681@N03/2617840500/ and http://www.flickr.com/photos/clarissa1309/2893054842/

Monday, March 30, 2009

I'll be Missing You...



Death is inevitable. On the day that we were born, we were destined to die any time in our life, be it in a young or old age, be it famous or anonymous, deprived or privileged, blissful or miserable, ghastly or decent, our common fate is that death will take us all someday. Some may gone so soon before us and the pain left is quite unbearable, it hurts so badly to lose someone in your life, be they closest to one’s heart or be a stranger yet when one becomes a part of who you are, losing them is heart-breaking.

The day the Lord took away my grandfather, I was too young to understand the feelings of loss, too young to comprehend what was taken away from us, it was years ago, I can no longer recall how painful it was, I guess, I was just so good in suppressing the anguish that for years I haven’t felt it anymore. But then this time, it all rolled up into pieces again, I can already reminisce the past, the pain I once endured, I now understand why it hurts and why it continue to bother me, for I felt guilty for not giving my best to love them and be there for them when they needed me.

Months ago, after more than a decade of loss, I once relived the moment of saying goodbye to someone so dear to me. She passed away without me telling her how much she meant to me, I once quoted myself saying that “I’ll die for her” but those were just plain words, I never gave an effort to care for her, to be there for her, I was given ample time to nurse for her yet regrettably, I have done nothing right, I was too selfish, too lax to do nothing and on the day of her last breath, I did nothing to save her, to give her another chance to live, I became useless. I buried her to the grounds with my tears and my love, I do love my grandma and it’s now too late to say it. Everyday I pray, I silently cry and suffer, wishing that she’ll be happy with my grandpa in heaven, praying that she’ll forgive me for everything I’ve done wrong, for being a disappointment.

For weeks I never conceptualized that someday I’ll hear her say the words that gave me peace. Even if it was just a dream, everything felt right, and I know she spoke the things that made me let go. She told me she’s happy now and she let go of my hand and tears gust in my eyes. And that very moment, I realized that she no longer wants me to keep holding on, she wants me to let her go for she’s at peace and she’s no longer in pain and that I should move on..
I know now that they are in my Lord’s paradise. No matter where they be, my love for them will live forever… I’ll be missing them truly.

A Girlfriend's Prayer


A prayer I continuously loved and adored for years now... read it from a collection of poetry found in my college library...since then i truly love this prayer! thanks to the poet who made this...

Heavenly Father, full of grace, bless my boyfriends beautiful face. Bless his eyes that shine so bright, help him lord to see the light. Bless his hands that sometimes roam, let them roam on me alone! Bless the ground on which he walks; bless the words of which he talks. bless the bed on which we lay. bless the love of which we say. Bless his arms that hold so tight, bless him till the morning light. Bless his words i long to hear; bless the water of which he may tear. bless his heart that loves me so… bless him Lord, i may never let go!
Mah P.O.V (Love and Life):

My thoughts:
Being in a relationship is an overwhelming and daunting experience, you love with all your heart, give up everything you could, smile throughout all the pain and fight back just to uphold the relationship yet there are times that no matter how hard you sacrifice, life becomes so unfair when the one you love go astray and leave your heart broken. Other times, some beings are too dumb and selfish to steal your love away, offering you a choice whether to fight or to give up. It doesn’t matter what choice a person makes, whether you act dim-witted, foolish and martyr , everything still ends up depending on our fate, on what kind of life we intend to live with the choices we make, it doesn’t matter if we hurt others or be hurt by others, what makes difference is the kind of happiness and self-fulfillment we get from doing the things that we know we will never regret in the end, at least when we die, we can say that we have live a life to the fullest, not regretting a single day that we haven’t done what we should have… love and life isn’t an easy role to play in this cruel world but at least we experience how to live, love and be loved! mwah...

Saturday, March 28, 2009

keep bleeding...



life - a twisted fate, you never know where your goin to, u never know when or where ur life ends...wer not in control of everything...yesterday may be fun, today may seem to be a blissful moment and tomorrow might never come... one day, i woke up realizing i havent done enough 2 keep a person breathing,... everyday i encounter death and it has always been simple, i see life as something i should protect 2 make people happy but when i see death coming, it becomes natural to say "he's gone" and it has always been simple to cover and cleanse 'd dead but now everything has twisted, it all started when u lose someone u truly love, someone u thought u would have 2 give ur life for them but havent done it...saying goodbye became so hard but it kills me more 2 pronounce death 2 someone concealed in ur heart....
months may have pass now, i may have lived through it, smiled through out the pain but still my heart bleeds... i guess, it takes time to heal... especially when ur alone hurting, blaming....I'm sorry... hope u can hear me...