God's Rainbow

My life's journey have been in the bumpiest road ever...I'm in control of everything I do, I'm vague and pathetic...For days, I've cried oceans for incomprehensible reasons and doubted for someone to rescue me in my miseries. I tried to walk out of this troubled world but fate keeps pulling me back, I guess there's a good purpose. This day, I found this poem hanging on the wall at my workplace, it's a simple post with a deep meaning, by then I found myself clinging back to reality that God is giving me rainbow for my rainy days but I frequently get soaked for I never surrendered myself to him....

"God Gives You a Rainbow for every Rainy day"
by: Kelly Wolfe

Often it is through the most difficult days of our lives
that we come to know ourselves and what is truly most
important to us. No matter how sad you may feel at times,
be confident that hope will awaken with you tomorrow.

Faith and Courage reach out to you; take hold of them, and
you will find that you will be able to smile again and
truly be happy once more...

How we deal with life is really a matter of personal choice,
so choose to be happy. Find joy in the simplest things, and
see beauty in each person you met.

When times are difficult, remind yourself that no pain
comes to you without a purpose... Above all, trust in God's
handcrafted plan that he has made just for you...
Let him love you through life's joyous and painful aspects;
if you do, you will find inner peace and unending joy...

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Transformers: Revenge of the Fallen

Finally, Transformers: Revenge of the Fallen has aired and I finally got to watch it. This movie is an action/adventure, science/fiction, fantasy, romance and war film, directed by Michael Bay. It’s a sequel to the 2007 movie “Transformers”. Surely, this movie’s going to be a box office hit despite what critics say. The movie stars Shia LeBeouf, Sam Witwicky, Megan Fox, Miakela Banes, Josh Duhamel, Seargeant Lennox, Matthew Marsden, Isabel Lucas and a lot more.
The movie depicts the true bonding of the Autobots with the humans, how the autobots defended the humans and created a life of trust and friendship. The plot of the movie might berserk and round the bend but the overall film was moving, fascinating, funny and marvelous. The autobot, Optimus Prime is one of my favorite, he’s still the master and savior of all, without him, the sun will no longer rise. Another character I love is Bumblebee, the yellow Camaro autobot is quite hilarious, he made me smile when he cried and its heart-stirring every time he rescues Sam, he’s an amazing friend and protects you by not letting your boyfriend cheat on you. The twins are so cute, silly and amusing. A lot of scenes in the movies will make you laugh and make you tear-eyed too. I don’t give a damn to those who think that this movie suck, we all have opinions and likes, the movie simply brings back the child in me and made me learn some of the cruel lessons in life.

Sonnet XLIII

One of the poems I truly adore is Elizabeth Browning's Sonnet XLIII, it denotes one's confession of true love.

I've been in this world for quite some time now, been in loved, been hurt, been dumped and cried over someone who doesn't deserve it. I declared my love for them just like what this poem denotes, I haved loved him with the breath, smiles and tears of all my life and if my God do really choose him as my destiny, I wanna love him more till the end. Being in love for me is the most amazing feeling in this world but It will only be amazing if you are being loved back....

"Sonnet XLIII"
HOW do I love thee? Let me count the ways.
I love thee to the depth and breadth and height
My soul can reach, when feeling out of sight
For the ends of Being and ideal Grace.
I love thee to the level of everyday's
Most quiet need, by sun and candle-light.
I love thee freely, as men strive for Right;
I love thee purely, as they turn from Praise.
I love thee with the passion put to use
In my old griefs, and with my childhood's faith.
I love thee with a love I seemed to lose
With my lost saints, -I love thee with the breath,
Smiles, tears, of all my life! - and, if God choose,
I shall but love thee better after death.
by: Elizabeth Barrett Browning

Well,to end my desperation in love, I just wanna say someday I simply hope to love and be loved better after death!! x.o.x.o

Personality Test

Today, I'm spiritless and I've been flipping through various sites for hours, glad, I found this site "http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx"...
I took one of their personality test and here's my test results:

It says....
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:
You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

Your views on education
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:
You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.

Who is your true self:
You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long!

Well.... The test quite deduced my personality, it tells things that surprised me and made me realize that I have those hidden qualities waiting to evolve!! However, I strongly disagree with the test perception of me being "confident" for no matter what I do, no matter what people say, I know deep in me...I am never confident with myself, with my abilities, with everything that I am, it's one thing that someday I should learn and hope to gain! heheheh! nite nite world! mwah...

Happy Birthday

Today's my Birthday, another year to celebrate God's gift of Life!! I'm thankful for everything he has given me, my life, my family, and friends!! I owe everything to my creator. Today might not be a good day to celebrate 'coz I'm terribly tired, I celebrated my birthday at work, from 12 am to 7 am, it's quite a distressing day to be happy but I'm trying to work things out and smile!!!

For weeks, I've planned to celebrity this day blissfully with my family and friends, to have a nice vacation somewhere I could find solace and happiness however due to unforeseen circumstances, everything I planned changed. I never thought I would spend my birthday at work for I have already requested a day off on my day but because some people just don't like me to be happy, my plans got ruined!!

Despite this, I tried to lift up my spirits and erased in my memory the pain caused by other people's selfishness, I continued to live and spend everything right because I believe my God has a purpose for giving me this challenge.

Today, on this beautiful day, on my birthday I am thankful for my life... I didn't sleep and went for a nice outdoor get-away with my family at Pizarro Resort, it was a peaceful place to bond with my soul, I spend the day with nature, swim and eat like it's my last day on earth! thankfully, I felt fulfilled and I'm glad that my friend bloggers greeted me too!!

And Here's a beautiful birthday poem engraved in my nephew's birthday present to me:

Beautiful Happy Birthday

Happy birthday on this beautiful day,
There's so many things, I just want to say.
You inspire many, with your thoughts and actions,
We're all so grateful, for your calm reactions.

Happy birthday on this beautiful day,
You've always been there, when we needed you to stay.
Kindness and thoughtfulness is your forte,
Our love for you, we wish to convey.

Happy birthday on this beautiful day,
We wish you the best, without any delay.
Hope you enjoy it, from beginning till end,
Here's a hug and kiss, we're ready to send.

Jesus take the wheel

I'm still alive and kicking, don't know where I got my strength and hope to continue living... I'm trying to decipher everything that's been happening, trying to comprehend my life's purpose. For now, I'm getting quite my inspiration from Carrie Underwood's song "Jesus Take the Wheel"... Take care world! mwah!

Thoughts of a Suicidal

What's the worth of living when you're always living in pain?

These past few days, I've been through a lot...endured all kinds of pain. I tried to wipe it all out through crying but it seems useless, everything still hurts and keeps hurting. I love my life, I love everything that I am and everything that I have but there's no sense in living.
They say I'm always happy, I look happy, I look okay and that I am good at what I do but they don't realize that Damn! I'm just a good actress...pretending my life is fine! I'm just tired of struggling, sick of crying, I know I've been smiling but inside I'm truly dying.
I think I'm not gonna last long, I presume my life's gonna end soon no matter what it takes...I fear my God but I mostly fear to continue living...
If that day comes that I'll finally give in, I just want to be remembered as someone who gave her life for others, who helped people brighten up their days but even I couldn't brighten up my own.

Now Signing off!!! take care world!!! *mwah*

Interesting Blog Award

Today, My Blog friend, Schizoshrink gave me a special award, the "Interesting Blog Award"... I feel privileged to be given such an amazing award...Thank you so much!!!

As a gratitude to everyone who keeps visiting my site, I'd like to pass on this award to my co-bloggers,friends and followers... feel free to grab this award!!!

Thank you!!! *mwah*

Twilight Saga: New Moon

New Moon - the sequel to the hit movie "Twilight", it is said to air on November 2009. New Moon is about losing one's true love and finding comfort, friendship and love with someone else. Further, New Moon epitomize the darkest phase of Bella Swan's existence.
Many critics may say the Twilight Saga is another fantasy movie about to lose it's dignity however,no matter what, for me, the movie/the book simply narrates the hopes and dreams of a girl...how girls wanted to find a man worth loving for, how we badly
aim to be loved unconditionally and eternally!!!

Have fun watching the Official New Moon Trailer...